Gaah ~
I’m being such a lazy bump when it comes to blogging. Furthermore, exams are here. So, pardon me. I’ve not been revising much. I spent much time on sleeping and resting nowadays. I have not enough confidence on doing well for MYE. Ahh, common Jajaa. Buck up !! It’s an important exam for goodness sake. -.-‘ Three papers had just past. English Paper 1, Geography & Malay Paper 1. It’s not that easy like what I expected. Serve me right, I’ve not been revising. So, yeaah !

Just now finished early. It’s iJ ? , birthday . Spent half an hour celebrating her birthday by the nearby block with NINJA. Had a cake, but it was specially from Beel to iJ ?. Sweet seyh. But, Apek tuh kasi candle berlambak giler babi , tapi tempat bawah dier tkder. Apaadaaah!~ Haa. Beside using those candles, we took 7 sticks of Pockey and put it at the cake. Once we let iJ ? had her wish than each and every of NINJA members took one stick and eat it. Cool right? Haa. Hope you’ll appreciate it aye. So, after the celebration. Went back home. Straight away changed and went to Tampines met Nuyuul, Nurul, Julie . Thought of asking Nad and Ain to tagged along, but both can’t make it. Than we met Ally Augie and Redza. Hee. Had a great time with you guys, seriously. Meet up next on Wednesday okay? Missing you la Augie ~

I guess that’s all ? Hmm , im missing girlfriends. ;( ! Tomorrow gonna go Batu Pahat. Won’t be updating that often. Haa. Byeeee ~

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It's been a week , since I last update . Have been busy with school and group-studies . Didn't attend school today , not lazy . But I'm sick ! Gaah ~ Exams are just tomorrow , have to study all alone at home . Thought of asking Miss Ng some questions on Geography , but too bad . Hmm , what more should I type ? My mind are just too blank , -.- .
I think , I gotta clean up my house and then start revision . Pray the best for me ok ? Insya-allah . Amin .

Bad day , like again ! -.-
My prediction was right . Things changed the way , I didn't expect . One of my ♥ are now gone , yesterday night . But still , I told him to promise me something . That thing was just a status , but the way we entertain each other will still be the same . I cried darn badly . I can't stop crying the whole night . I otp with him , tears shed . I otp with Ain , those tears just can't be control so it can't stop . I let everything out to Ain . I didn't sleep the whole night despite an hour or two . Time strikes at 5.00am , parents were awake . I decided to release my stress , so i took my shower and followed them to the canteen . My eyes were swollen . Parents asked why , I just didn't answer . Cousins were there to eat at Daddy's place , they asked why . But I just said , nothing . I don't have the guts to say even a single word related to it cause it made me feel really sad . I've lost one of the person which is really meaningful to me . & I've lost that person for goodness sake . Alhamdulillah , `J.A.N and my Abg Aiman texted me to make me happy . Thanks guys , (: . App a lot .

♥ :
Ingat eh , itu hanya status . Layanan tetap samer . Pashe kalaw tkder daddy nanty dhe sedeh tawus . Don't say it's the end ! I'll promise to give even the best .

Things have been worrying me . I feel something has went wrong . But I just don't know what it is . I've been thinking a lot of Arwah Ibu till I wrote her name at my hand despite other names . I've been thinking of ♥ `J.A.N , ♥ `Ninnjja , ♥ ` Wa_ _ _ _ _ , ♥ `Sanchez . I notice that I've been thinking of random people too . What's wrong Jajaa ?! I thought you're strong ! I think all this started because of him . Daaaamn luh ! I've been waiting for the happiest day to come , but when ? Ya Allah , hope it'll happen soon .


I was looking back at my photos . And guess what ? I found all those memorable photos which I spent with ♥ `Ninnjja . Loves , do you remember this ? When we sing and laugh like nobody business . We regard as though ODA was our place ? Haha . This was the greatest day for ♥ `Ninnjja , I suppose . I still have those funny videos under my documents . I laugh my ass out looking at those video . I just hope that this day would ever come again , (: . Please Allah ! It's the greatest which I just treasure . & the date was on the , 09.02.10 . Memories which I'll treasure forever .

Ishh . This little boy beside me is such an irritant to me , I swear . She beat me as hard as he could just to force me to play the ' Nobody ' song . Tsk , -.- . Tgh dngar lagu best-best sia padahal .

What should i describe my mood at school today ? Happy ? Sad ? Boring ? I think all of it is mixed . Starting of the day , i was quite in a happy mood . Except for one thing that totally despise me . Met `Nuyuul at opposite bus-stop , west . As usual , she made me laugh . Thanks , ♥ . `Inin was late .
For the first 5 periods , which is before recess . This particular thing really bothers me till i can't even concentrate on my studies . I wrote this letter to give to `Sanchez and also to release a bit of the 'bother-ness' that distracts me . Unfortunately , idk what's happening to me . It's my first time that i easily give up on something . I was so worried . Till recess , i used `Inin's phone to call `Sanchez . His tonation really made me down , and he seems like not talking to me . Straight away after end the call . I cried cause i'm worried , missing him ,& sad . I told ♥`J.A.N . They hold my hand . And told me to stop crying . Thanks a lot , guys . Both of them wipe my tears . `Inin consult me , `Nuyuul made me laugh and smile . I sat down at the foyer , closing my face . & that's the point where i actually cried even worser cause i was really pleased and touched by the both of them . " `J.A.N aderh per . " That's what `Nuyuul said ,& i smiled . Ily both many2 ! Right after recess , i still can't get my full attention . The 'bother-ness' distracts me even worser . I kept on thinking about him ,& the short conversation during recess . I just try to put up the best even it's bothering me . I was damn worry till I used both `Julie & Adilla's phone to message him . At the end of the day , Adilla showed me what `Sanchez has replied . Alhamdulillah , that was the happiest point . Everythings back to fine for me , (: . & straight from there onwards . ♥`J.A.N/♥`Ninja , made my day . (: , thanks a lot !

- I'm sorry for being such a disgraceful person , :( .
- Akuh tk buat apape dngan dyer ader ngerti tk ? Akuh nk tawu the truth .

I just got to be honest . I can't keep it by myself anymore .
" ♥ Sanchez ,& ♥ Inin ! The both of youh changed ! :( "
I don't know whether it's me who changed or youh . I'm not putting the blame on youh cause I know , I'm the one which is always causing trouble , -.-" . Every night before I went to sleep , the both of youh will be the one which is playing on my mind . I keep on asking and crying inside my heart , why does it all changed ? I really want back the past . Please ! I just can't stand with the changes that the both of youh had shown . It truly hurts me and affect me badly , I swear . If youh want to know , why all this while I've been acting like one dumbass and stuffs is because that I've been too pressurize with family ,& yeahh youh . Please lovees , I really want back the past ! I beg youh , :( .

♥ Inin , youh changed in a way which really hurts me . From now on , I just don't want to interfere with yourh BGR as I know that I've been always giving youh wrong suggestions about this matter . We are not really like the past . Now , youh seldom share yourh secrets ,& I find that youh're trying to hide it from me too . It's not that I'm expecting everything about youh I need to know , it's just that now ... Okehh , nvm . Whatever it is . I know that between youh and me , we have no problem . It's most likely because of the BGR that made us much apart , if youh were to realise . I just have to speak up to save this friendship . I mind losing others , but I don't mind losing youh . Sometimes , truth do hurts . I just don't want to end the `J.A.N . Ily ,& yes i do . I just have to speak up , because I want the old youh darl ! Please .

♥ Sanchez , i know i'm the one who've been creating trouble . I'm sorry .
Please , i want the old us back ! :(

& now , im gonna say tht im officially a Marsiling Girl . =.='

Jajaa , sick ! :(
Sore throat , eyes swollen , fever , headache & runny nose . Menyeksa dohh !
I have been crying too much this few days over certain things , but I just keep it to myself . I wouldn't tell anyone cause , the reason are really hard for me to explain . Maybe , i would share to `J.A.N , soon .
It would be my last time playing computer , eating , sleeping , slacking and all FROM PASIR RIS . It's gonna be the last day which I'm gonna stay at Pasir Ris . & from tomorrow , i should have said " Goodbye East , Hello West ! " :( , ooo , sad ! It's gonna be really tough for me to slack with friends . Damn uhh damn ! Everything's gonna change soon , i bet .
O-am-gee ! Help me , everything's changing . I need `J.A.N ,& Sanchez ! Please please ..
o.O , NINJA and `J.A.N , has been helping me a lot . Macehh !

♥ `J.A.N , aii need kamu berduer !

Mummy , sayer rindu Sanchez !
Get well soon , please ! (: