Saturday, July 31, 2010 ♥
Asemekom. Today's Saturday. Usuals, boring day of the week. Beg bapa to have dinner at Sempang Bedok. Instead he went to work. Totally pulls my mood down. Stayed at home the whole day. Did nothing besides watching teevee, surf the internet, eat and sleep. Mendak kan? Hm. I suddenly miss staying at Pasir Ris and Tampines, :c. Daddy shift again to east side please. The situation is really different and it changed ever since i shifted from Pasir Ris to Marsiling. No more slacking at pondok. Less outing with friends. Less slacking. Feeling more restless. Feeling more tired. School work always not done. Have to wake at the precious time of 0430 in the morning. Im not easy to do anything in this house. Nak buwat menda ader je larangan ataw pengacau tau. Eesh~ Hm. Now. One problem after another. It's really disturbing me. I'll start having grudges on doing something whenever i think about this problem. Haish. I'll start to throw temper on others when i've no mood as im thinking about that. Ya Allah, give me strength please. Tolong. Ahh, enough~ Ohh ya. Kakak went to a concert. Dapat jumper Lee Min Ho. Tak fair seh kakak. Nvm nvm. Hm.
[ Fo you, if yr're reading this. All i want is just yr apology. :c ]
♥ 27,A song which is really meant for you. Things changed. It didn't went like how we wanted it to be. Harsh words and threating each other rudely is the cause of it. I believe fight is a normal thing. It's just between willing, patience and sacrifice. But not giving up! Now the problem is about forgiving. Repeatedly i seek for forgiveness but it's hard me to receive either the answer yes or no. I told you every single feeling of mine but all you expected was me to understand yours only. You feel the sadness in you but do you feel it in mine? No, so it'll be hard for you to understand how i feel. But i just want to say that how much pain you feel is the same as in me. :c Im here saying again that im sorry for every mistakes that ive done. Please , :c.
This night feels so different ! People says it's Nifsu Sa'ban . Inilah kebesaran Allah , :D . Most people say it's such a peaceful night today . Despite many problems , Allah is giving me this night to let me feel a bit relaxful . Alhamdulillah ! Syukur . Hm . I've been hearing Raya songs with Kakak . Best ! Hehe ~ Conferecing with Encik Ain & Encik Nurul .
Ohh Boy , bad ! :(
Seandainya , tak lagi bersama ! Semua kenangan mengusik jiwa .
Bitch ! Happiness won't last forever . Not only forever . It won't last for a long time . Giving up . Imma stupid girl seriously . Regret . Hanya bisa mendoakan yg terbaek ~
" Tell me what i hope is , impossible ! "
Baccck. (:
I'm back after a few days of silence. Leaving my blog dead is all that i don't ever wanted but depends on the situation. Have been busy lately with school stuffs and also outside stuffs. Even if there's free time, i'll be lazy. Haha, biase Ja Ja! Caught up with few events this week. Had Girls Night with besties on Tuesday to celebrate our success. Awesomeee ~ Followed by RHD celebration the next day. Suck whole timeeee~ Now, going to be busy with common test, Ohh Fvck. And also dance practice for the upcoming concert. National day! Haha. Yaaaay~ Hm. Had Malay common test earlier in school. Syukur, i can do it. Ohhhhhhhh, tomorrow's Saturday and then Sunday. Boring sia. I want school. Cause i would tend to miss someone which i only happen to that person at school. D: Ah, bye.
Kau bodoh nak mampos pe ? Kan sekarang nie duer kali kerje kene buat ! Bodoh sia . Buang maser aku aje kau tawu . Tawu tadi kau takyuh buat tu kerje kan . Tunggu aku balek ah , biar aku buat . Nie kirekan , aku kene anu balek berpuluh-puluh baju tu ah ? Buang maser kau faham tak . Buat kerja asyik nak linca kabot je tawu . Aku tegor kau mara . Eeesh ~ Otak pat mane sia ? Takmu jadi bodoh ah . Sumpah sia . Takkan aku nak bogel siak . Fed up la aku dengan perangai kau . Maner yg kat sini tawu mengutuk aje . Babi teng teng ah ~ Siaaaaaaaaaal ah .
Ahh-Een Goodgurl , (:
Monday, July 19, 2010 ♥
Hey Readers , (:
Ahh-Een Goodgurl here !
currently in school . so i decided to update for her . yeah , she's next to me . heh . she updated for me , i update for her back . :D
i MUST have good english here , or she'll scream at me ! heheeee , :P
Jajaa Janii ;
The gurla i knew would be there for me even she herself is having problems .
sarah says : HI ! JAJA :)
alamaaaak , sibuk arh nie gurl-gurl . :P jangan marah ye Saraahhh . back to Jajaa ! yeahh ! i looooooooove her . she's amazing , yeah ! i miss spending time with her . well , we're not close after i could say im 'attached' ? heh , sorry loovee . but still , deep inside i loooooove you more then Zul . abes , mati aku ! i should say , friends comes first before boyfriends . true ? no friends , no boyfriends , :P Family comes first , geeee . she is my family . part of my family already . Jaaa , gy tuka address . tinggal east . yayy , NO MORE NORTH ! :P lagy senang nak gy skula , lagy senang nak jumpe . yayy , ai dh tkya klua lagyy bila kita tinggal same-same ! hahaha . yang laen , jumpe kat skula suaaa . Jajaa , imy arh . cheii ! she's actually beside me though . HAHAA ! i want to spent moooore time with Jajaa , spent less time with others i can say ? RIDNU !
okay , i guess i better get going . need to go to badminton match , interclass .
goodbyeeeeeee , ILY JANNAHHHH ! :D
I believe family comes first. Followed by friendship. Then lastly, love. We may be spending much time with friends or our lover rather than family. But if i were to have a choice to something which includes this three. I'm going to choose family even that we're not really close. Now, i realise how important family is. Because of them i'm here. Because of daddy's money i get the things that i wanted. So, alhamdulillah! :D
Hm. Currently at school computer lab with Julie, Ilaa & Sarah. Supposed to be doing some research for the Racial Harmony poster. Helping a bit just for 2A2! :D But fork out some time on blogging and facebooking. Heheh. Lessons just now were quite fun. Classmates and girlfriends make my day. Thanks peeps. :D Later on going to Elias CC supporting schoolmates who's playing badminton. Kind kan aku? Hm. I'm so looking forward for tomorrow. Girls, i bet it's going to be a fun one. Kalau ader kiter mesti enjoy punyer. :D Haha. Ok, i guess i got to go now. Damn lots of research to be done. Byee! Aku nak terberak seh. xD
I've keep on repeating looking at our dance video for the SGT finals. Make me laugh. But overall, it's full of satisfication. Cool, nice. Our effort not a waste. :D True enough, third is at least a something rather than nothing. Hm. To Cypher. Yeaa. Maybe this thing has past. But sorry eh if our group were too bitchy cause you girls have teacher to train you guys. Now, we girls realised. You guys deserve first. It's adat pertandingan. Ader menang, ader kalah. Tol tak tol? Hm. I can say amongst the most groups in SGT. Cypher, you guys rock. The best! :D Honest peeps. Ninja & Cypher all the way. :DD
Selamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat Pagiiiiiiiiiiii rakann-rakann ! =D
Off to breakfast with family. Hopefully Bapak ajak jalan-jalan after that. Pantat dah tak leh dudok umah lagi. If not i kill you. Eeee, mepek nyer aku. Byee .
Saturday, July 17, 2010 ♥
The person that you call, best friend. Never expect, that person may have some bad things over you. So, 100% trust. I never believe in those. Hm. Currently chatting, fb-ing & blogging. Have been staying at home for the whole day. Mendak~ Daddy, Mummy and others off to Batam. Aku dudok umaa, baek!~ End of the third week of term 3 for school days. Hm. That week. School was normal, usual stuffs as always. Scandal, Ain, didn't attend school for the whole week. That's boring. But, interesting because of some problem? HAHA! -.-' Have been trying my very best to put the fullest attention on every subject. Common test coming in a week or two. Seven to eight weeks to end of year. Scareding! Common test is the only hope for me to make me pass my end of year. Thought of having a group study once a week. But who wants? Gaaah. Nevermind, study by my ownself is much worth it i guess? Heheh. Ohh, looking forward on Tuesday. Gonna have an outing with Ninja plus Nadiedoh and Namirah to celebrate the success. Swensen here we come, wee~ Craving. ( Stomach growling )
Ohh, i had a very bad dream yesterday! Ewwww ~
I love my pretty girlfriends, bestfriends! =D Do you? Haha.
Hm. Life has been sickening lately for me. Even more challenges for me to go through. But alhamdulillah, despite those hard times. Some peeps do make me smile to let me feel at least of the happiness. Syukur! How greatful am I to have them. Heh.
School was going on as usual, earlier on. Spent most time day-dreaming and sleeping, -.-'. Ja Ja, Ja Ja! Lessons ended early today. Dismissed exactly at twelve thirty. Met the rest than off to canteen. Had our lunch, slacked a bit. Therefore, board the bus and went to North Point. Great times with iJ and Cinoneh. Huwoooh~ Haha! Approximate around four we went to board the bus, than each and everyone went home sweet home. Wait! While I was at the interchange. I saw my favourite artist, ^^. Cinoneh, y'know it. Reached home at around four fifty? Ohh. Tomorrow's Wednesday. Damn! Gonna be a dreadful day. Lessons end at one thirty. All lessons tomorrow are those fvcking kind ones! Gonna have PE. And, ART. Bitch. Muhammad's lesson. Hate it! Malas nak tengok muker tu pukimak. Grr~ Hm. Peeps says he look alike to David Villa. Buto, muker cacat cam taik ader ah. Tsk, lazy. At the end of the day, therefore be Maths Remedial till three thirty. Ahh, fvck la. Pray hard that tomorrow will be my day despite those dready lesson. Please, Allah. Ameen~
No one's perfect. Everyone did a million mistakes. And everyone wants a thousand chance. Things will not turn the way that you wanted. You sometimes may be hurtful by someones reaction. By right, whatever you think is actually absolutely different from the someones intention. From there, things won't get to what it was supposed to be. Simple saying, misunderstanding. I've seek for forgiveness for more than thrice. Even more than five times. But you still can't get rid of those hurt feeling. I understand you. But everyone deserve another chance. Here am i saying again, sorry! D:
♥ 2702, where you. Even that we're just friends, those feelings in me are different.
Saturday, July 10, 2010 ♥
100% agree with that quote.
Bitches out of my way! :D
Was playing computer all the way and i realised, Oh Fuck! Kakak's over the teevee. By the time looking back at the time, haha! It's already 9pm, -.-'. Was thirty minutes late till i realised. Nonsense enough? Yea i guess. Hm. Having some grudges for tomorrow's performance. Have to be at school by 8am. While, I have to be at the bloody inter by 6.50am. An hour journey for me to reach school. It seems like normal school timing. Erhh. It's Sunday for goodness sake. Tsk. Lucky have iJ to accompany me. Nvm, sacrifice much just for Ninja. :D Sweet kan aku. Bluehh.
Spent my dreadful Saturday with family. Much of withfamily, -.-'. Earlier went to Daddy's shop to help out than off to Fajar Road. Followed for the sake of following. & now, im a bitch placing my butt at this bloody rocky chair connecting with the Cyberworld. Grr. Nonsense much. My spine's aching. Pain. Too much of slouching.
" Rindu hati rindu, Bicaramu selalu di ingatan
Rindu, Menanti saat kau kembali
Pilu, tak tahan hati ku menanggung "
I Miss Him, D: !
his voice, his attitude, the fights, the laughters, the calls, the messages. everything that's in him, i miss him. i've been thinking of him this few days. i've been telling my best friends that i really miss him and i want him back. life seems incomplete without him. i've no idea on why we ended up this way. i guess it's because of the chat between him and this other guy which admit i'm his boyfriend, -.-'. everytime at school, i'll try searching for him. sometimes, when he walked past my class. out of a sudden my concentration will be out to nowhere. and even sometimes when i bumped into him, my feelings will change. my eyes just can't get out of it and i'll start thinking more about him. i'll tend to miss him even more. at certain nights too, i'll went online just to check out if he online. but no luck. he's offline. at certain nights too, i'll hope my hp will ring with his call or message. but not even one expected. D: . i've the guts to text him but i'm scared that he might change, D:. I Miss Him, sumpah. Crying all day long, thinking about this.
Where's Warthog, ♥? " Dekat-dekat di sayang. Jauh-jauh di kenang. " Haish.
Yoszaaaaah.
It's the end for the second week of term 3. How fast can time flies? Woa. What am i suppose to describe this week of school? Fun, boring? Mix i guess. Had some great times. Had some boring times. Had some pain times. Had some sad times. Had some bad times. Oh. Bad time for this week in school, is on Wednesday. Freaking frustrated i tell ya! Had Art lesson. I totally hate it. Firstly it was quite of fun time. But when it's towards the ending. I accidentally kicked a container of paint, -.-'. How stupid can i be? Get a scolded by that Mr Muhammad. Nbcb, sort. And i have to throw away my favourtie school shoe. Enough of explanation just hate to say about this. For this whole week, i've been putting 93% of my attention in class. Mostly for english, maths, malay and science. Alhamdulillah, :D. Common test are just in a few weeks time. Have to put my fullest attention and study hard. This time for common test is important, i guess? Those marks can help me for EOY. Pray hard. Hm. Yea. This Sunday Ninja had an offer to perform for a carnival, :D. At Pasir Ris Park. My post this time is really jumping from conclusion sia. Tsk. Sorry yea.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010 ♥
I'm being a bitch this few days. I don't put my full concentration on what im doing. I'll be careless at certain times. I've been crying for certain bitches which don't deserve my precious tears. Why Ja Ja, why? Comm'on. There's even much for you think of. No time crying over bitches. Tsk, -.-'.
Hm. Enough of those! New topic, please. Hm. Germany vs. Spain in a few hours time. A hot game which people even dare to have some betting for it. There's this predict thingy says that Spain gonna win. Many people believe on those cause that thing have never predict wrongly even once. But, no! I believe in God. Chehh! ♥GERMANY ALL THE WAY~ Spain all the best, :D .
Since kakak told me to do something using her laptop. Find a little bit of chance to update my blog too. :D Hm. Let me think what to write aye.
Tomorrow is Tuesday. Pray hard that Ninja will win, amin.Wish us the best aye. Please, XD.
* Change topic* Earlier in the afternoon, went to study at Northpoint with NurulC', IninG', Aiman, Zai, Zul, Ein. Thanks for the laughters and all guys. Appreciate much. I guess this time had really a bit of " studying time " . Ohh yah, one great memories between the girls. Hahahah! NurulC', get it kan? IninG', what a waste tak dapat nampak. Heheh! Ashek turon Northpoint la yer girls, :D. Heheh, i love tht part. Winks. That's it, ~ Byee.
Heeeey! XD
Staying at home for the whole day. Mendak! Im tired, sick. Having flu, cough and fever. Tsk. Hate this part right here. Psst ~ Off la now. No more idea.
Siglap Got Talent Finals ; Ninja !
Saper tak kenal Ninja ? ^^ Had our Finals yesterday . We were supposed to be the last group but due to some technical error for one of the group , we ended up being the second last . Hm . Ninja's did great , :D . Alhamdulillah . Mistakes are normal right girls ? What important is that we've put off everything that's in us . Through out some conflicts and some hard feelings . Still , all of us had succeed till the finals . Syukur ! Now let's wait for Tuesday aye girls ? Result bebs . Pray hard . Have been asking opinions from some people . & they said that ours were great . Hope so ! :S Pray hard many-many . I love you girls very much . ♥
Ohh , not forgetting NurulC' & NadiahN' . Thanks girlfriends for spending much time of yours to watch , accompany and giving us advice about our dance . Thanks a million much girls . Without both of your support and all , i don't think we'll succeed . :D Thanks NurulC' for spending much money on us too . Appreciate much . Thanks to the both of you for giving us confidence saying that we can do it ! :D I love you girls muchy . ♥
Hm , i guess school was great for the whole of first week of Term 3 .
NINNJJA's are harmony . Because of you girls , you made me love school . Because of you girls too , i've realised and have been loving you guys more . Problems are settled . Im praying really hard that we girls can be together as long like this . No conflicts , no backstabbing . XD You girls really made every single of my day even that im having problem almost everyday. NINNJJA's , you're another half of my life . :D You girls are not my option but are my priority cause i believe and love you girls . Really , ♥ . :DAbang ! ( not my real brother , hope you know who you are . )
Syukur that you give me another chance . When I've received your message saying that you forgive me but still don't understand why I changed . I cried reading those message . Tears of joy . At last i get back the brother whom i've really been wanting for . We were fighting for two days . And that period of time . Whenever i see you , my heart starts shrinking . Feeling damn wordless . As now that you gave me a chance . I'll try to get back to who i really am . Like what i promised you . Thanks brother , :D .
Boy ! We're together as one now . Even that we're just friend now . I still regard you as someone precious to me . With every love , kindness , care that you gave me . I won't even make used of it . You changed , i changed . But i'll pray hard that there's still a chance where we could be like the past . Ameen ~ 2702 , where you ♥ ?
Asemekom. Today's Saturday. Usuals, boring day of the week. Beg bapa to have dinner at Sempang Bedok. Instead he went to work. Totally pulls my mood down. Stayed at home the whole day. Did nothing besides watching teevee, surf the internet, eat and sleep. Mendak kan? Hm. I suddenly miss staying at Pasir Ris and Tampines, :c. Daddy shift again to east side please. The situation is really different and it changed ever since i shifted from Pasir Ris to Marsiling. No more slacking at pondok. Less outing with friends. Less slacking. Feeling more restless. Feeling more tired. School work always not done. Have to wake at the precious time of 0430 in the morning. Im not easy to do anything in this house. Nak buwat menda ader je larangan ataw pengacau tau. Eesh~ Hm. Now. One problem after another. It's really disturbing me. I'll start having grudges on doing something whenever i think about this problem. Haish. I'll start to throw temper on others when i've no mood as im thinking about that. Ya Allah, give me strength please. Tolong. Ahh, enough~ Ohh ya. Kakak went to a concert. Dapat jumper Lee Min Ho. Tak fair seh kakak. Nvm nvm. Hm.