♥,I regret for not showing you my love in the past. I regret for not taking it seriously in the past. I know that I'd been playing around with your feelings. Contact with any other guys, spread out vulgarities anytime that I want, criticize you and do all sorts of stupid stuffs. Despite those stupid things that I've did. For the whole of that 10 months, my heart is mainly meant for you. I know you won't believe this, but yes it's true. I gotta be honest that in the past I'm weak at expressing. Sadly, things can't be done. Now it's already too late. You've brought up a decision and I've to respect your decision even though it takes a million broken pieces of heart along. I guess now I'm feeling like how you feel in the past. I think I deserve this. I don't know how to face you once school re-open. I bet it's going to disturb my concentration. Sadness gonna keep on twirling in my brain. Oh my. I really don't know how am I suppose to get over this situation. Now, I'm missing the basic things that we've been doing everyday. Calling, messaging and perhaps share stories to each other. Now, I just have to get use to it. Or maybe I may just keep on expecting for those to be received? I may look as if I'm in the kind of ' fine-with-it ' but actually I'm not. I'm trying to get over all the facts but it's just letting me give off a countless tears. You see. It doesn't sound so easy to forget and just continue with life especially when the lover leaves. But, yea. I guess it's fated for me. Now, I'm in the term of worry and jealousy if it's about you. But how can that both get this things done right? The whole point I gotta say is that I really regret and now my heart is sinking cause of the much misses I'm suffering now. Never mind, I believe true love waits. So boy, I want you to know that I will WAIT for you even though it takes a thousand miracles and happens. And, I'll hold tight the only promise. I'm gonna watch every soccer match of yours, trust me. I will. Twenty-seven, broken heart.
Just came back from hang out with Ira somewhere around Woodlands. Both of us had our gigantic correction tape which I think it could last for a year. Sounds weird? It's 40 meter for god sake. Cut the crap. I just came back from a short trip with family to Malacca yesterday night. We booked a great place of accommodation. It's a bungalow with a kitchen, four rooms, two toilets and our own private swimming pool. It's really a well-chosen place to stay in. But sadly it's a countryside thing and there's less entertainment. I've been spending my holiday by being moody and sat off alone all the while. Things are just bothering me. Even family have been hating me for the such behaviour. We were playing games when I suddenly throw my tantrum. That just pissed them real much. I felt so wrong but the emotion just can't control me. Even when they're enjoying at the Swimming Theme Park, I sat at the table waiting for them to get done instead of following them. See how things can't really barged me? After all, my holiday are a boring one. Cause I spend most of the time alone. I really gotta relax my mind. I really need to have emotion counselling, please? Seriously, I just can't get my mind out of him, he's stuck in my head and also in my heart. That explains, I'm really expecting him. Okay, I think I'll make a move. Gotta catch my favourite movie or perhaps sit down and talk to a 8 months year old baby. I sound so stupid for this. Haiyoo.